Post by ` jimmy ahern on Jun 14, 2008 18:51:09 GMT
jimmy peter ahern
"That misery loves company,
That misery was looking for me,
Happiness, is a face that don't look good on me."
"That misery loves company,
That misery was looking for me,
Happiness, is a face that don't look good on me."
i'm just a face for every picture``[/blockquote][/blockquote]name • julie-anne, yo!
age • 13
contact • msn in my profile :]
rp experience • about a year xD
member title • sloth leader
how you found us • amy ;]
a smile for your scrapbooks``full name • jimmy peter ahern
nickname(s) • jimmy, weirdo, freak
age • 17
birthday • september 16th
why you're here •
- paranoia
- self harm
- anxiety disorder
- clinical depression
- insomnia
there's a ghost in this room``height • 5"11
weight • nine stone, five pounds
stature • tall and skinny
eyes • hazel
hair • black
description •
jimmy's hair is usually in some sort of messy style, that is if he can be bothered to style it at all. from his height, jimmy normally dwarfs people, that he likes, feeling some sort of power makes him know that he's important, instead of being some kind of loser without any friends.
his clothes are mostly casual, unless he's made to wear some type of uniform, then he will dress smartly. but most of the time, jimmy just wears jeans and a black band top, something like that. most of his wardrobe is made up from black and more black, he'd never fitted in, even when he was one of the 'normal' kids, when he had friends that 'fitted in' he didn't like it, so he became an outsider and he's never looked back.
play by • gerard way
to witness my first breakdown``likes •
>winter
>being in control
>being an outsider
>not having any friends
>reading
>writing
>art
>poetry
>music
>coffee
>cigarettes
dislikes •
>summer
>having friends
>people 'understanding' him
>not having his earphones permanently fixed in his ears
>being late
>losing anything
>TV
>not having any of his 'cancer sticks'
>not drinking at least five cups of coffee on a morning
habits •
> biting his nails
>cutting any part of his body
>not sleeping
>being moody and depressed
fears •
>being late
>losing anything
goals •
>to overcome his paranoia
overall personality •
jimmy's personality? that's screwed up more than you could imagine. most of the time, when his depression is intact no one would want to know him; jimmy's moods being so intense. most of the time, he doesn't even know where it comes from, there is no underlying symptoms of it, and usually, jimmy acts with his heart, not his head.
his insomnia doesn't exactly help, either. that seemed to start when jimmy was under a lot of pressure from his mother, wanting her perfect little boy to do good in his exams. she had said they were the most important exams of jimmy's life, so he started missing out on the much needed sleep and swapped it for endless studying. in the end, jimmy was so exhausted that he failed his exams and ever since, as a little reminder, he's had difficultly sleeping.
around the time of his exams, jimmy started to also suffer from anxiety disorder, it didn't come on gradually, oh no, one day he was fine, and then next, bang, he couldn't be late and he couldn't loose anything. this disorder seems to have had the most effect on him, seeing as the anxiety can sometimes make him start being depressed.
like all people suffering from depression, jimmy's was caused by another thing, his being anxiety and insomnia. his mother first noticed this when he hid under his covers one day and refused to come out , they put this down to bullying, as it seemed that he didn't desire to go to school. in reality, the so called 'bully' was actually jimmy's mother. everyday jimmy's depression got worse and worse, until he was hiding under a massive blanket of it. this was around about the time he started to self harm.
at first, jimmy was careful, making sure gabrielle wouldn't see, as he'd caused her so much grief in the first place. making sure he cut on his thighs. but eventually, he just stopped caring and slit his wrists. all jimmy wanted was his mother to care and understand about him. the thing was, she did care about him, and she did understand him, but jimmy couldn't see so far past himself for that to happen.
too much of you is never enough``parents • adam carl ahern, father
gabrielle ahern, mother
siblings • rodger ahern, twin brother
other important relatives • none
history •
gabrielle and adam were what people would call high school sweet hearts, they dated for a few years in high school, made out a lot around others and most of all, they were with the populars. one night, adam crept around gabrielle's house, joining her massive party and like any other teen his age, got himself drunk. by the time everyone was either mortal or passed out, gabrielle and adam were in her bedroom, having a very steamy kissing session. knowing that it was going too far, gabrielle tried to pull away, but adam wouldn't let her. and by the end of the night, their relationship was in tatters. raping your girlfriend and then beating her up? that was low. and gabrielle knew it. the next day she tried to break up with him, but he was too protective of her, she was almost like his obsession and he would not let her go.
moving through high school, gabrielle got used to adam beating any guy up who even looked at her, she became used to his endless chants about what was right and what was wrong. gabrielle just seemed o give up. her old friends pushed her aside, letting her know that she wasn't welcomed with them anymore. and she fell into the deep, dark net that was called depression.
after high school, adam and gabrielle moved in together, she knew that she would have no choice in the matter whatsoever. so acting like the good girl she was, she shut her mouth and did what she was told to do. that is until the night she found out she was pregnant.
being completely stupid, she told adam about it, and adam reacted like she thought he would. he started to kick and scream at anything in the room. he put a hole in the wall with his fist. he repeatedly punched gabrielle's stomach, as if trying to make the baby go away and eventually, made her stomach bleed.
after adam's little fit of madness, gabrielle tried to leave him once more, but again, he wouldn't let her. again, he screamed at her that no man would want her with his baby in her stupid, whore womb. knowing that there was no other way of leaving him, she called the police and adam was taken away, sentenced with a five year imprisonment.
gabrielle was happy that she was finally free of adam, and settled comfortably in their old home. that is until she started to have the baby. going into a blind panic, gabrielle rushed to the nearest hospital and was placed in a bed as soon as it was physically possible.
as she was giving birth, the doctors told her she was having twins. gabrielle couldn't believe it, there was no proof of twins running through her family and all she could do was face the truth.
at exactly five am, september 16th jimmy ahern was born, soon after, ten minutes to be exact, rodger ahern was born. after being discharged from the hospital, gabrielle moved back into the house adam and her had bought together and settled down with jimmy and rodger.
it wasn't until both jimmy and rodger were 15 that any of them had any trouble. this 'trouble' was exactly the time of jimmy's important exams. when jimmy started to get all of these disorders, strangely, so did rodger.
gabrielle just couldn't cope at all. both of her bubbily, bright children sharing depression? of course. she sent them here, out of the way.
now I'm tangled in the sheets``read the rules • admin edit [:
rp sample •Helene leaned against her desk in her dorm. With Lorena out and Alex still sleeping, it was almost lonely; almost. Smiling to herself as the image of Alex popped into her head, but it soon departed, leaving her with the reminder of where she was, what she was doing. And just like that, she stopped leaning on her desk and looked down at the drawings she had done last night. They were beautiful, sure. But to Helene, they just weren't real enough, she just wanted Pandora and Alexandre to run out of the picture together, hands clasped around each other and sit down somewhere to kiss vigorously. Shaking the idea out of her head, Helene stood up and rubbed her eyes carefully, trying not to smudge the eyeliner. But when Helene checked herself in the mirror with her own disgust, she noticed she must have smudged them by doing that. Feeling slightly angry at herself, Helene walked over to her drawers and ruffled around in them for a while before finding her eyeliner pencil. Smiling to herself once she had applied the eyeliner, Helene remembered where she'd wanted to go that day.
Quickly Helene glanced at the clock on the wall, sighing to herself, she noticed it was a little too late to be meeting Lorena outside for her morning walk. She wasn't mad at herself, but she wasn't pleased that she had sat at the desk and drew all night and a fair portion of the morning, too. Shaking her head at herself, Helene guessed she should get dressed.
Helene made her way over to her wardrobe to see what clothes she could wear. She smiled as she noticed her Cute Is What We Aim For concert t-shirt, the memory of that gig was too good to bare, so quickly, Helene pulled off her pajama t-shirt and stuck that one on. Helene looked for a pair of jeans that would go well with the black t-shirt, she smiled widely as she found a pair of dark blue jeans that would show off her figure well. Now it was just shoes. Eventually, Helene found a decent pair of dolly shoes that sparkled the rainbow when the light hit them. Seemingly satisfied about her outfit, Helene looked in the mirror and straightened out her hair. Happy then with her hair, Helene grabbed her small messenger bag, stuck her phone, a few books and iPod into it. She made sure everything was in check and carefully fastened her prized possession around her neck; a necklace her mother had given her before her death.
Sighing to herself once Helene was out of the door, Helene made her way downstairs. Missing the canteen on purpose, really, she didn't want to see all of those kids stuffing their faces before classes. Not that Helene had a class to be off to. No sir, first period she was free. Then Helene faced a decision. Where would she go? Deciding on the stage, she smiled. Helene had never actually been there before, never played on the massive grand piano that was placed there, never sung on top of the stage.
Eventually, Helene found herself outside the door to the stage, she pushed down on the handle just in time to see a girl do a back flip off the stage. Seeing the flying blonde hair she guessed it was Electra, but then she corrected herself. Electra was no gymnast, and obviously this girl was. Shrugging to herself, Helene stepped over to the girl. It was at that moment she realised who it was. Her nostrils flared and Helene just wanted to run out of the room. Lori. Helene's eyes narrowed as she remembered what that bitch had done. She'd flirted with Alex. When Alex was her soul mate. Feeling as though she should say something, Helene coughed, trying to get the bitch's attention. "I see the bitch is in..."
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headers are thanks to All Time Low because they are awesome.
do not remove this credit because if you do, bad things will happen,
starting with her hunting you down with her rabid flamingoes.
they will peck out your eyes. now that's not pleasent is it? so please, keep the credit on.